Next time I think about ever having a cigarette again, please remind me how shitty and horrible it feels to quit. I've done this before and I wish I didn't have to do it again. They say it's not physical pain, but it damn well feels like it sometimes.
Cravings are funny things. I read a book today and the author described her anger as starting in her lower back, I concur entirely. I hadn't really thought about it, but I've become more aware of where things come from. Anger in my lower back, tiredness in my eyes, humour in my chest.
My cravings start in my mid section, just above my belly button, and go all the way to the back of my throat.
It's unpleasant, but true to Allen Carr's word, not painful.
J arrived back today. It was all I could do not to cry when I saw him. I missed him more than I even thought I would. I also romanticised him I think, and that isn't his fault.
Maybe I've been missing him for longer than he's been away...
It's nice to havea clean house, and I'm tired so hopefully I'll sleep well tonight. Last time I quit smoking ( henceforth known as #1)I had serious insomnia issues. fingers crossed....
I have a book about being a courageous follower that should help get me to sleep. I think its something I need to read. How to stand up to and for our leaders. This year I can be proactive. This year I can do all that jazz.
night night,
xxR
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